Tempe bound

So... After kicking off this Blog saying that I met a girl in Tempe, I'm about to return there to look for a new environment. I don't know what about Omaha has this effect on me. I went to see Built to Spill last night and was glad Omaha was a place where Built to Spill can pack a house of enthusiastic fans. Still, I'm surrounded by family who constantly grind away my self-esteem. After I got back from Tempe, my sister said I had a 'spark' - even a swagger. A lot of people, including my friends, said I wouldn't survive because I would be utterly alone. The truth turned out to be the opposite. I was 1500 miles away from the high school that was like a prison sentence. I was away from a toxic family life that inflicts guilt on you and makes you feel inadequate and incomplete because you're 30 and you're not a homeowner, yet alone married. In Tempe, I was judged on my own merits. Of course, I may have fallen in love with the concept of escaping rather than the city itself. That's why I plan to go there with an air of objectivity. I've applied for ten different jobs - so far no calls back. It's a tight job market. Still, I plan on making some cold calls/walk-ins. Failure is not an option. If I go and just veg out, I must not want to get out of Omaha. But I do. More than anything. Of course, you have to have the right tunes for the journey - CDs I've packed... The Flaming Lips - Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots Wilco - Yankee Hotel Foxtrot The New Pornographers - Twin Cinema My own mix (Sheryl Crow's 'A Change Will Do You Good', Johnny Cash's version of 'I Won't Back Down', Oasis' 'A Bell Will Ring', Yo La Tengo - Big Day Coming') De La Soul - De La Soul is Dead Radiohead - OK Computer and The Bends The Verve - Urban Hymns